I wrote a whole long essay.. but i decided to delete away.. so tat nobody will know what is happening.. I felt the strong urge to tell him.. but i'm keepin it to myself.. Keepin it wif me forever.. Bcos i know if i let it out.. alot of things will change.. n i dun wan it to change... Why are all these feelings coming to me at tis time? when situations are at their worse state? If I can make a wish.. I wish that situations can be alot better for all of us.. Wishful thinking? I tink so too.. I was questioned abt my faith, questioned abt my love for God, questioned abt the kind of feeling i hav for the 2 of them.. questioned abt why am i doin all these, I'm being questioned abt things tat were the principles of my life.. questioned abt things tat i believe will last forever.. things tat i thought would never change.. things tat i thought were good, turned out bad.. things tat were bad, turned out worse... I always hav this faith in me tat everything tat is bad, will hav a good side of it.. i always believe tat when God take something or someone away from you, he will definitely give u back someone or something tat is the same or even better.. But all these faith tat i believed in, lookin at wat is happening around, I'm being to doubt.. I know i shouldn't.. but why are all these happenin at the same time?