Life hav been different since the time when I started this blog.. I left it to rot for a couple of months bcos there was nothing much to update. =)

Hopefully time will make things better...
Sometimes, I wish I never did choose to be transferred here.. Seriously.. Although the people here are nice in general, there are some whom I will never, in my life, be able to work with them peacefully without arguments or disagreement. There are times, when I feel that I have to let them know that they do not rule the place, will be treated by others as showing that I'm still a kid, that I'm throwing my temper. I'm not. Yes, I'm pissed but I'm not showing my temper. P.S: If I were to throw temper, it's 100 times worse then raising my voice.

By not arguing with you, I'm telling you that you have my basic respect, not that you are good in your work or that you have alot of knowledge of the work but because you are older than me. But by acting like a kid, complaining to an adult everytime someone do something that is not to your benefit, will let you lose the basic and little respect that I have for you, in no time. And believe me when I say that once I lost my respect to you as an elder, don't expect me to be nice cos I wouldn't be.

I always believe that everyone in the world should be treated with respect and I deeply believed that respect has to be earn and not given naturally.

Couple of weeks ago,  someone ask, why is life so unfair. Couple of years ago, a close friend ask me that question too. My answer was that God is fair. Everyone will have something attractive and something not so attractive. And that if God takes something away from you and it costs you huge pain and all other feelings, he is doing it for your own good and he for sure, would be giving something / someone even better, and it's jus a matter of time.

These few weeks, I've alot of thoughts, regarding stuff at work, regarding life, regarding alot alot of stuff.. I jus hope that everything will carry on fine. =)

NITEZ people!
Wow! Been 4 months since I last blogged... After using twitter where random thought of mine are posted, my blog became neglected.. This place will soon become will place for me to share with my closer friends (who knows the address), my thoughts and more into what have been happening with my life.

It have been 3yrs plus since I joined my current company - a time long enough that I shld be moving on to somewhere is what many friends have told me.. But the question is, "Do I really want to move or am I getting too comfortable here that I don't wish to move?" I can't even answer it myself. No doubt, after taking on this job, my expense grew.. by almost double.. Due to the amt of cab rides I hav been taking and trust me, I have been making the effort to lessen it. (Yes, I'm guilty abt giving in to taking cabs every morning and see my $$ flowing away..) And I'm really hoping to change this bad habit of mine... It's freaking expensive to cab from where I live to where I work.. =(

I'm thinking / considering / contemplating to either change a dept (with no links to current one) or to leave and find a new job, in a new company or totally change an industry for new experience.. But all, would have to wait till I get bonus at next year March. Considering that I'm already at year end, no point throwing away my bonus jus because I wish to change job.

YES, for people who still do not know, I've graduated! I'm officially a graduate!! I wouldn't have done it, without alot of support from friends, colleagues and of cos, Xx - who encourage me to sign up, Kim - who approve my staff study loan, Qiqi, Shenna, Damon & Sarah, who helped me through my studies and of cos family especially my mum, who understood my short temper during projects deadline and exam period..
Enough of the long story, looking at the date, CHRISTMAS, the season of giving is coming again!! Have you started preparing for it? I have.. Hopefully, this years Xmas will be as fun as last years!!

Looking at the time, I need to sleep soon if not, tml I will give in to cab again!! LOL!!

Alright friends, hope you guys had a great weekend, I had fun in mine!! And NO monday blues for all!!

NEW BLOG POST!! Hahaa.. After a month of lapse!
I doubted many people read this blog.. HAha..

My 24th Birthday came n left.. =(
Officially 24! HAhaa

Had a fun-filled e day before and on e day itself.. =D
Other than dance pract that sat, met Zuzzy, JErvin, Leen, Xx n Gem for dinner n after dinner activities... =D

No photos to share as we didn't take any..
Jus wanna say thanks to Dan, Trix, Jo, XM, Jas n Steve for the b'dae pressie and all that were there to sing e "speedy" birthday song to me n Jas.. =D

Dinner @ Haji Lane was disappointing as e weather was hot and food standards drop! After dinner activities @ Coffee Nations was definitely enjoyable to all that were there.. We had a fun time jus playing bingo! Thanks Zuzzy, Jervin, Leen, Xx, Gem n Max for the pressie n card!
Days before my bdae, my bro n max were admitted to hospital on separate occasions due to different reason. Was encouraging max to recover by tempting him with clubbing! LOL.. So, the plan was made for my birthday to go club.. =)

Suppose to meet them for dinner @ 730 but e 1st (Max) only arrived at 745.. Therefore dinner was pushed to 8 instead..
PARTYTIME!! Entered at near 1200.. Drank probably the most no. of different cocktails in my whole life that night, thanks to those guys that were there..
N by now, most people would have know that the most embrassing thing happened with me vomiting.. LOL..
In anyway, although most embrassing, it was also one of the most fun ones..
Want to thank all those who took time to come down, brought e drinks n took care of me.. MUCH APPRECIATED =D

I'm waiting for Max to upload the pics and sent me!!!
Birthday presents are not exactly opened yet, except for the one that Dan they all gave (cos I used it on that day) Cards have all been read!!

Thanks to all those who remembered, thanks for all e presents, cards as well as the well wishes via fb (yes, my fb's well is flooded), sms and verbally (I bump into Ashley @ Suntec!!) .. =D

This year's birthday was a pretty wonderful one I would say.. Let's hope that next year, I will have a love one to celebrate with me.. Whahahahahha =P
My office officially moved to CBP already.. Thank God, my company decided to provide shuttle service & that timing for the JE bus to office will be changed to 745!!! YESH!!! Saving on transport is a high priority for people like me who travels from one end of SG to another for work.. =( More people will be moving in next week = more people sitting shuttle bus! =(

Recently, dance class started!! WOOHOO!!! Stretching session is what I missed e most.. Even thou e 1st lesson left me aching e next day.. HAHAHHAAHA...

School started too! Frankie is back to teach us for SM => Meaning to say, passing this module would be slightly easier.. =D Hopefully, nothing will be too difficult this semester.. AFterall, it's my last module.. Afterwhich, I will be done with school for the moment.. =D Thinking of which, I haven't started reading on e 100 MCQs test which is a week after my birthday!! =( Shall start studying soon so that I can pass that Financial Risk course in office! Probably after the trip I guess.. =D

This year's trip was a rocky one.. Yesh, I haven't went yet and it's already rocky.. May everything goes smoothly! Will be meeting Zuzzy on the 19th to go change money plus probably would have to pack my luggage then cos friday is always a SUPER busy day in office! And I have to settle everything before going cos I wouldn't be ard for a week!

That's all for now, blogging from Maryanne's house~
Shall blog again probably after my trip..
REalising! I don't think much people come by here nowadays! Hahahahaa... MORE FREEDOM OF SPEECH!
Regular blog posting have been one of the rarest things that I do.. From daily updating when I first started to 2 to 3 times a week, to once a month to now, once in a few few months.. Life has been up and down for me these few months.. From transferring to a new dept to moving into someone else's house.. I haven't been having enough sleep.. Was mentally stress up.. Which lead to a couple of emotional breakdowns.. Not in front of pple thou..

My colleague Rei was saying that I have never looked stressed before.. I told her, that's bcos I am good at hiding it.. I hardly cry in front of people these days.. Not even my mum.. Alot of things, it doesn't makes a difference to you, may make a difference to me..

Taking too much things to heart would only make life harder for myself.. N for other people..

These days, I don't have much time to myself.. Weekdays would be busy working.. (Have been working till 8 almost everyday..)
Weekends, usually will be spent catching up with my bunch of close friends.. and try to catch up on my sleep.. N times like these, to update my blog..

I'm trying to make time for myself.. But most of the time, I end up sleeping.. Hahahaa...
Living so far from office, of cos alot of time are spent on travelling..
Office is moving thou.. Not closer to home but further from home..

My office is moving to Changi Business Park on 7th May.. Travelling time will increase by half an hour.. =((

Job scope at work has change.. Increase in work load, increase in portfolio...
Hopefully things will be get better SOOONNN.. If not, my dark circles will only get deeper and deeper..
My trip is more or less finalize.. Hopefully, there wouldn't be much changes..
Things left to settle for the trip:
- Travel insurance
- Leave
- $$
- Itinerary (More or less finalize but it's not with me..)

First time going on a trip with them.. May it be a smooth trip.. =)
Haven't recd confirmation from school yet..
Still don't know which day will class be..
School shld be having exams now..
All the best to Shenna, Qiqi & Sarah (not sure if she is taking any module this sem thou...)
Alright, me goin to sleep!!!! NITEZ!
This place feels kind of abandon now.. Ever since i started tweeting, my blog lost updates.. For friends who only reads my blog, my apologies..

It have been 2 months plus since I move to e other end of SG.. I know there are still some people who still link me to be staying in bedok.. Kekez.. Normal afterall since i stayed there 23 years of my life..

Work wise is nothing interesting other then getting more n more stressed up.. N yes, STRESS LEVEL IS STILL INCREASING...

I feel like leaving by somehow, something is making me stay.. (Yes, my study loan is part of it..)
School is starting soon, i'm hoping that i can clear this last module smoothly n grad!

It's late already so i'm heading to sleep.. NITEZ!
I've been saying it for almost a month already that I'm shifting house..
So if u haven't been in touch with me for quite awhile and reads my blog to update ur news on me..
Which i think no one will since i don't update much nowadays..

I'm moving out of the area that I stayed for the last 20yrs of my life..
Will be moving on 2nd March.. Which is coming in less than a week..

From the initial stage of refusing to accept the reason, trying to find alternative solutions to now, move lo.. The kind of change in attitude and thinking that I have, is shocking to myself..
I haven't been able to convince myself that I would be able to get pass this sooner or later..
BUt decided to take it as it comes..

Afterall, alot of things in life are not within my control..
Like it or not, understand it or not, it will happen..
Other than moving house, office is moving soon too..
Date have not been fixed yet but it would most probably be Apr / May..
Destination?? Changi Business Park..

A couple of things that I'm looking forward to??
- Vacation trip with Zuzz n Jervin.. Not sure yet if there would be any others joining us..
Will be travelling to HK this time.. either 22 to 29 May or 28 May to 5 June..
- Jeslin's wedding in september..
- Taiwan trip with Annie in end October as well as to meet up with Xiao Yu!!!
- New environment for work and for home..
Last semester of school will start in MAY!!!
Final module before I grad!!!!
Hopes everything goes well for this last module!!!
Have been on holiday from school since Dec..
Hope I'll be able to cope with school work..
Will update again after I moved! =D
E new year has been peaceful so far.. AFter the huge change in workplace and in everything, things are finally beginning to settle..

Things at work are progressing at SnaiL pace.. I have been there for a month plus already. YET access to systems are still unavailable! Can u believe it??

The struggle in me has been whether should I be moving on to something else already after 2 whole years here?? Yes, I'm lookin around and if you do have any suitable jobs to recommend, do let me know.
I'm sure if you are reading this, you would definitely have my contact number. LOL..
Drop me a comment if you have a job to recommend yet, can't remember where u "throw" my contact number.. =)

Every other thing in my mind now is beginning to take form.. I've already accepted the fact that I would have to move out of this house soon.. Venue, as per mentioned in the recent posts that I had, is still undecided.. I'm hoping that M's hse will be done soon so that I've an option of moving there too.. (P.S: As a tenant)

School is starting in May! So there is nothing much to worry for that portion for now.. AND YESH!!! I pass the previous 2 modules that I took!!!!! Praise GOD!!

E next module would be my final module and after which, I would be done with school for the time being!! That is till I decide if I wan to take on another degree or advance diploma or certificate in an area which I always wanted to do ------ Early Childhood Education or Events Mgmt or Casino Mgmt or whatever it is that attract me... =D

I haven't been in touch with alot of pple.. Haven't met up with alot of pple for a LONGGGGGG TIME!!! 3 gatherings have been fixed so far and 1 more is in the midst of planning!!
I know alot of pple are having their own issues in relationship, family, work and whatever it is that is disturbing you, You and YOU..

I am not someone whom can give you solutions and wonderful advise BUT, I can be a good listener.. Do let me know if u need my ears N I will gladly borrow them to u.. And you know I don't mean cutting them off for u.. HAhahaaaa...

Anyway, more plans are coming up!!
- Esmond's full month bash..
- Gin's birthday party
- Blackout by NUS (No, I haven't decide if i wanna go..)
- Dinner with Maryanne, Christina, Jeslin, Winnie & Rena..
- Ktv with Rei and others..

Planning stage!
- Shopping with Leen.. -> SOOON!!
- HK trip with Zuzz & JErvin.. Not sure if there is any others joining us yet.. -> Schedule in late May..
- Taiwan trip with Annie & LC.. -> Schedule in Oct / Nov
- Dinner with Shenna, Damon & Sarah -> Unknown..
- Meet up with JX & HR.. -> Unknown..
- My Birthday Bash! (I need help for this.. Do let me know if you have any ideas or suggestions or recommendations.. Or U can offer your help, I'll love it!) -> When else?! JUNE lah!

WOOHOOO!!!! I love gatherings & meet ups!!! =D
While talkin to HR and David yesterday, the topic landed onto you again.. HR was sayin how much u have change.. N on my side, i was actually defending u.. Depsite the fact on how much u hav hurt me deep inside... Maybe after so much, I've not actually forgotten abt u..

As I was thinking abt the things that u hav done for me - the stars, the bear, the box, the diy clay flower and bear... E first time u held my hand, the first time u call me, the first time u said u were serious abt being with me.. I realise that maybe... maybe... U still stand a place in my heart and that so far, no one has taken over that place.. Not even the 2 that i had after u..

Is the first one so hard to get over?? Even after spenting 9yrs of my life without u.. The wound is still so fresh and hurting.. Even to the fact tat I avoid takin 28, avoid goin to heerens, avoid suntec's food court, avoid shaw centre's mac... Avoid everything that will make me think of u, even avoid meeting HR..

Whatever it is, it was me, who made the mistake.. hopin tat i could see u once again.. N yet, i make a mess out of it.. After so much, I found out tat u still stand a place in there..

I know u wouldn't hav a chance to read this..
Cos in the first place, you don't even know i blog.
I'm Sorry JX... N...