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I am very lost and confused..
Regarding my life, my work and relationship with some people.
Directions in everything is unclear.
I do not know what the hell is going on..
Just feeling very very confused..
Guide me pls if you can..
For I need you now..
Only if everything can be as simple as 123
Life would have been much easier..
However, its like the saying..
"The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple"
I am hoping for somebody..
Yearning for someone..
To fill that position in my heart..
I wonder when that person will come...
Or even,
wll he ever come...
Lookin back,
life is never e same again..
Wat use to be in e past..
is not what it is now..
Thinkings tat I held unto in the past..
Are not the thinkings that I have now..
Frenz that use to talk abt everything under the sun in e past..
Is saying onli 'hi' and 'bye' now..
What hav life become?
People that I was not realli close to..
Became closer..
People that I was close too..
I dun even know what is happening to them now..
All bcos of a mistake that I made,
I almost lost a friend..
I gained that friend back..
but the trust is never there again..
we seldom talk nowadays..
for everything, he has someone else..
I wanted to talk to him..
But he never had the time..
Even if he has,
he will choose to talk to someone else..
For I no longer holds the same position that I use too,
In his heart..
I dunno if I changed..
Or if it's bcos he changed..
I still care..
I still listen..
But nobody is talkin to me..
Silence is all that is felt..
Lonely is all that is happening..
The promised made to frenz is still valid till today..
If you need a listening ear..
If you need a company..
If you need some care..
Jus give me a call..
I'm always ready to listen..
I can't promise that I will always be there..
But I will try my best to push away all things to make time for you.
Bcos, you are my friend..
And bcos you are important..
I know I have changed ever since I left school..
I know I have became impatient..
I know I have became unapproachable..
I am truly sorry..
The happy-go-lucky and always smiling and happy friend is longer there..
But, willing to listen and free to accompany you will never change..
Regarding my life, my work and relationship with some people.
Directions in everything is unclear.
I do not know what the hell is going on..
Just feeling very very confused..
Guide me pls if you can..
For I need you now..
Only if everything can be as simple as 123
Life would have been much easier..
However, its like the saying..
"The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple"
I am hoping for somebody..
Yearning for someone..
To fill that position in my heart..
I wonder when that person will come...
Or even,
wll he ever come...
Lookin back,
life is never e same again..
Wat use to be in e past..
is not what it is now..
Thinkings tat I held unto in the past..
Are not the thinkings that I have now..
Frenz that use to talk abt everything under the sun in e past..
Is saying onli 'hi' and 'bye' now..
What hav life become?
People that I was not realli close to..
Became closer..
People that I was close too..
I dun even know what is happening to them now..
All bcos of a mistake that I made,
I almost lost a friend..
I gained that friend back..
but the trust is never there again..
we seldom talk nowadays..
for everything, he has someone else..
I wanted to talk to him..
But he never had the time..
Even if he has,
he will choose to talk to someone else..
For I no longer holds the same position that I use too,
In his heart..
I dunno if I changed..
Or if it's bcos he changed..
I still care..
I still listen..
But nobody is talkin to me..
Silence is all that is felt..
Lonely is all that is happening..
The promised made to frenz is still valid till today..
If you need a listening ear..
If you need a company..
If you need some care..
Jus give me a call..
I'm always ready to listen..
I can't promise that I will always be there..
But I will try my best to push away all things to make time for you.
Bcos, you are my friend..
And bcos you are important..
I know I have changed ever since I left school..
I know I have became impatient..
I know I have became unapproachable..
I am truly sorry..
The happy-go-lucky and always smiling and happy friend is longer there..
But, willing to listen and free to accompany you will never change..
Recently, things has not been good over at office.. alot of things has been happening within my dept.. it is not suppose to be said since nothin hav been anounced yet.. All I can say is that everything will turn into a mess sooner or later..
I'm lookin for a new job.. actively lookin for a job.. probably in HR or Marketing..
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Actually, we all feel e same way.. tat we shldn't dump her there alone.. tat we shldn't all leave at the same time.. But the people are driving us crazy.. n she keep agreeing to wat other bosses say.. n it increases our workload.. not tat those reports are realli hard to generate.. Its jus tat it is veri veri tedious.. One trackin report will take one whole day to do le.. Yet, he can't even justify if he uses tat report?! Then why am i spending so much time to do it? Another says tat the data he wants, we can ask IT to pull for us.. The thing is.. Will out IT do it?? No.. cos we dun hav e system.. Haiz.. EVerythin is manual here..
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Lets hope tat things will get better thru e days...
I'm lookin for a new job.. actively lookin for a job.. probably in HR or Marketing..
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Actually, we all feel e same way.. tat we shldn't dump her there alone.. tat we shldn't all leave at the same time.. But the people are driving us crazy.. n she keep agreeing to wat other bosses say.. n it increases our workload.. not tat those reports are realli hard to generate.. Its jus tat it is veri veri tedious.. One trackin report will take one whole day to do le.. Yet, he can't even justify if he uses tat report?! Then why am i spending so much time to do it? Another says tat the data he wants, we can ask IT to pull for us.. The thing is.. Will out IT do it?? No.. cos we dun hav e system.. Haiz.. EVerythin is manual here..
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Lets hope tat things will get better thru e days...
Recently, things has not been good over at office.. alot of things has been happening within my dept.. it is not suppose to be said since nothin hav been anounced yet.. All I can say is that everything will turn into a mess sooner or later..
I'm lookin for a new job.. actively lookin for a job.. probably in HR or Marketing..
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Actually, we all feel e same way.. tat we shldn't dump her there alone.. tat we shldn't all leave at the same time.. But the people are driving us crazy.. n she keep agreeing to wat other bosses say.. n it increases our workload.. not tat those reports are realli hard to generate.. Its jus tat it is veri veri tedious.. One trackin report will take one whole day to do le.. Yet, he can't even justify if he uses tat report?! Then why am i spending so much time to do it? Another says tat the data he wants, we can ask IT to pull for us.. The thing is.. Will out IT do it?? No.. cos we dun hav e system.. Haiz.. EVerythin is manual here..
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Lets hope tat things will get better thru e days...
I'm lookin for a new job.. actively lookin for a job.. probably in HR or Marketing..
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Actually, we all feel e same way.. tat we shldn't dump her there alone.. tat we shldn't all leave at the same time.. But the people are driving us crazy.. n she keep agreeing to wat other bosses say.. n it increases our workload.. not tat those reports are realli hard to generate.. Its jus tat it is veri veri tedious.. One trackin report will take one whole day to do le.. Yet, he can't even justify if he uses tat report?! Then why am i spending so much time to do it? Another says tat the data he wants, we can ask IT to pull for us.. The thing is.. Will out IT do it?? No.. cos we dun hav e system.. Haiz.. EVerythin is manual here..
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Lets hope tat things will get better thru e days...
Ask u guys a question..
Do what you dream abt come true?
Mine, sometimes does, sometimes doesn't...
If I can make a choice, I would like to hav wat I dreamt abt on fri nite to come true..
But i know its too good to come true..
Dun ask me how i know..
I jus know..
Contradicting right?
I oso tink so...
Hahahahaha..
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喜欢一个人。。不一定要让他知道。。因为如果他知道了，往往只有两种结果。一种是在一起，另外一种是他拒绝你。而每一种结果都有50%的机会。不想因为这样而失去了一个朋友。。 所以往往不说比说来的好。除非你知道，他对你也有感觉，而且也想和你在一起。不然，还是算了吧。。
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Given a choice, I would choose someone who luvs me the way that makes me comfortable and appreciated... Cos I once heard that its better to be loved.
爱与被爱，到底哪一个比较幸福？这个答案因该是因人而异的吧。
我会选择被爱。原因，不明。只是觉得爱一个人好痛苦。。
起码，在被爱的同时，可以尝试着去爱那个爱着你的人。。
Do what you dream abt come true?
Mine, sometimes does, sometimes doesn't...
If I can make a choice, I would like to hav wat I dreamt abt on fri nite to come true..
But i know its too good to come true..
Dun ask me how i know..
I jus know..
Contradicting right?
I oso tink so...
Hahahahaha..
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喜欢一个人。。不一定要让他知道。。因为如果他知道了，往往只有两种结果。一种是在一起，另外一种是他拒绝你。而每一种结果都有50%的机会。不想因为这样而失去了一个朋友。。 所以往往不说比说来的好。除非你知道，他对你也有感觉，而且也想和你在一起。不然，还是算了吧。。
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Given a choice, I would choose someone who luvs me the way that makes me comfortable and appreciated... Cos I once heard that its better to be loved.
爱与被爱，到底哪一个比较幸福？这个答案因该是因人而异的吧。
我会选择被爱。原因，不明。只是觉得爱一个人好痛苦。。
起码，在被爱的同时，可以尝试着去爱那个爱着你的人。。
Ten things that you love to do:
1. Talk to people.
2. Play Mahjong
3. Go out with friends and buddies
4. Gyming
5. Blogging
6. Shopping
7. Play computer games
8. Clubbing / Pubing
9. Drink Coke
10. Sing KTV
Nine person that you will never regret knowing (excluding family)?:
1. Li Qi
2. Evelyn
3. Khar Eng
4. Hsiao Ling
5. Xiao Hui
6. Danny
7. Romans
8. Jaeson
9. Edmund
Eight songs that get stuck in your head frequently:
1.張敬轩 - 断点
2. 梁静茹 - 失忆
3. 卓文萱 - 对你的爱
4. 阿桑 - 受了點傷
5. 庾澄庆 - 戒不掉
6. 五月天 - 天使
7. 五月天 - 宠上天
8. 陳綺貞 - 告訴我
Seven things on your office desk:
1. My non-camera hp
2. MP3
3. Papers
4. Cups
5. Pens
6. Sweets
7. Photos..
Six artists/bands people should give a listen to:
1. Eric Lee & A2J
2. Mary J. Blige
3. Mayday
4. 卫兰
5. 陳綺貞
6. 江美琪
Five beverages you drink frequently:
1. Water
2. Strawberry Yogurt Drink
3. Hot Milo
4. Aloe Vera (White Grape)
5. Coke
Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. Chocolates
2. Dancing
3. Ice Cream
4. Frenz
Three things you would always have it along with you wherever you go:
1. Handphones
2. Wallet
3. Ring
Two places that you go to for relaxing:
1. Fitness First @ The Cathy
2. Sentosa
One quote that you like:
1.
The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
As I know, it will just be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid.At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever.Its time to move on with life.
1. Talk to people.
2. Play Mahjong
3. Go out with friends and buddies
4. Gyming
5. Blogging
6. Shopping
7. Play computer games
8. Clubbing / Pubing
9. Drink Coke
10. Sing KTV
Nine person that you will never regret knowing (excluding family)?:
1. Li Qi
2. Evelyn
3. Khar Eng
4. Hsiao Ling
5. Xiao Hui
6. Danny
7. Romans
8. Jaeson
9. Edmund
Eight songs that get stuck in your head frequently:
1.張敬轩 - 断点
2. 梁静茹 - 失忆
3. 卓文萱 - 对你的爱
4. 阿桑 - 受了點傷
5. 庾澄庆 - 戒不掉
6. 五月天 - 天使
7. 五月天 - 宠上天
8. 陳綺貞 - 告訴我
Seven things on your office desk:
1. My non-camera hp
2. MP3
3. Papers
4. Cups
5. Pens
6. Sweets
7. Photos..
Six artists/bands people should give a listen to:
1. Eric Lee & A2J
2. Mary J. Blige
3. Mayday
4. 卫兰
5. 陳綺貞
6. 江美琪
Five beverages you drink frequently:
1. Water
2. Strawberry Yogurt Drink
3. Hot Milo
4. Aloe Vera (White Grape)
5. Coke
Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. Chocolates
2. Dancing
3. Ice Cream
4. Frenz
Three things you would always have it along with you wherever you go:
1. Handphones
2. Wallet
3. Ring
Two places that you go to for relaxing:
1. Fitness First @ The Cathy
2. Sentosa
One quote that you like:
1.
The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
As I know, it will just be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid.At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever.Its time to move on with life.
本来以为第一次也会是最后的一次了。。 可是这次还是忍不住地要用华文。。
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爱你不一定要让你知道。。现在不是很好吗？看到对方就笑一笑。。 又不需要避来避去。。=）
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为自己而活， 生活是不会有色彩的。。
只要你快乐，我也会跟着快乐的。。
只要你幸福，我就会开心。。
这是我唯一希望能看到的。。
你的快乐与开心。。
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The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
As I know, it will just be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid.
At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever.
Its time to move on with life.
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飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
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爱你不一定要让你知道。。现在不是很好吗？看到对方就笑一笑。。 又不需要避来避去。。=）
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为自己而活， 生活是不会有色彩的。。
只要你快乐，我也会跟着快乐的。。
只要你幸福，我就会开心。。
这是我唯一希望能看到的。。
你的快乐与开心。。
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The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
As I know, it will just be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid.
At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever.
Its time to move on with life.
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飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
Type n retype... type and retype... And i'm still doin it... typin my entry.. and deleting it.. haiz..
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Events coming up...
16/03 - Sharon's BBQ
17/03 - Vanessa's 21st Birthday Party
18/03 - Gyming
19/03 - Audit
23/03 - KTV with colleagues
30/03 - Wedding dinner
Tat's all for now...
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I'm looking for something tat is important yet has been lost for yrs.. Where can I find it??
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Events coming up...
16/03 - Sharon's BBQ
17/03 - Vanessa's 21st Birthday Party
18/03 - Gyming
19/03 - Audit
23/03 - KTV with colleagues
30/03 - Wedding dinner
Tat's all for now...
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I'm looking for something tat is important yet has been lost for yrs.. Where can I find it??
Wanted to blog ytd.. But was pretty busy.. and my bro was using the com.. Ytd was boring.. After fetching my mum from hospital, stayed at home throughout the whole day till I met Xiao Hui for dinner.. Supposed to meet her at 8.15.. then, it was changed to 8.30... In the end, she onli turned up at abt 9.. Cos her tuition teacher refused to let her go.. Can't blame.. that gurl has a maths test today.. yet, she was not prepared.. Haiz.. I use to be like tat too.. Kekez..
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Talkin abt my mum, she got a fish bone struck in her throat on sat night.. I was at home, fell asleep after playing one game of sudoku.. My phone rang a few times at ard 11.15pm..
P.S: people who know my ringtone will know tat its pretty loud..
She said she felt pain and that she is goin down to CGH A&E to see the doc.. I rushed down to her workplace and sent her there in a cab.. Reached at around 11.45pm..
After waiting for abt half an hour, finally, she saw the doc.. Following tat, she went for x-ray.. After all that follows, a throat specialist came, wanted to help her take out the bone.. However, the doctor said that bcos she ate after 10pm, he can onli do it tml morning.. And she hav to stay there for the night.. Was quite worried for her.. cos dunno if there will be infection..
On Sun morning, the nurse called and said that she is fine.. And can be discharged.. So went to fetch her.. Thank God!!
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Ooh.. She showed me the fishbone.. it was abt 4cm.. and according to the doctor, the sharp edge poked the voice line.. and she might risk an infecton.. Till now, she is getting better by the day.. Hope, at the end of the day, everything turns out fine..
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Hope everything turns out fine for you too.. I know I broke my word twice.. REalli sorry... Know that you are getting on better terms with another person.. All the best to you and that person. =]
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Talkin abt my mum, she got a fish bone struck in her throat on sat night.. I was at home, fell asleep after playing one game of sudoku.. My phone rang a few times at ard 11.15pm..
P.S: people who know my ringtone will know tat its pretty loud..
She said she felt pain and that she is goin down to CGH A&E to see the doc.. I rushed down to her workplace and sent her there in a cab.. Reached at around 11.45pm..
After waiting for abt half an hour, finally, she saw the doc.. Following tat, she went for x-ray.. After all that follows, a throat specialist came, wanted to help her take out the bone.. However, the doctor said that bcos she ate after 10pm, he can onli do it tml morning.. And she hav to stay there for the night.. Was quite worried for her.. cos dunno if there will be infection..
On Sun morning, the nurse called and said that she is fine.. And can be discharged.. So went to fetch her.. Thank God!!
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Ooh.. She showed me the fishbone.. it was abt 4cm.. and according to the doctor, the sharp edge poked the voice line.. and she might risk an infecton.. Till now, she is getting better by the day.. Hope, at the end of the day, everything turns out fine..
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Hope everything turns out fine for you too.. I know I broke my word twice.. REalli sorry... Know that you are getting on better terms with another person.. All the best to you and that person. =]
Wanted to blog ytd.. But was pretty busy.. and my bro was using the com.. Ytd was boring.. After fetching my mum from hospital, stayed at home throughout the whole day till I met Xiao Hui for dinner.. Supposed to meet her at 8.15.. then, it was changed to 8.30... In the end, she onli turned up at abt 9.. Cos her tuition teacher refused to let her go.. Can't blame.. that gurl has a maths test today.. yet, she was not prepared.. Haiz.. I use to be like tat too.. Kekez..
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Talkin abt my mum, she got a fish bone struck in her throat on sat night.. I was at home, fell asleep after playing one game of sudoku.. My phone rang a few times at ard 11.15pm..
P.S: people who know my ringtone will know tat its pretty loud..
She said she felt pain and that she is goin down to CGH A&E to see the doc.. I rushed down to her workplace and sent her there in a cab.. Reached at around 11.45pm..
After waiting for abt half an hour, finally, she saw the doc.. Following tat, she went for x-ray.. After all that follows, a throat specialist came, wanted to help her take out the bone.. However, the doctor said that bcos she ate after 10pm, he can onli do it tml morning.. And she hav to stay there for the night.. Was quite worried for her.. cos dunno if there will be infection..
On Sun morning, the nurse called and said that she is fine.. And can be discharged.. So went to fetch her.. Thank God!!
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Ooh.. She showed me the fishbone.. it was abt 4cm.. and according to the doctor, the sharp edge poked the voice line.. and she might risk an infecton.. Till now, she is getting better by the day.. Hope, at the end of the day, everything turns out fine..
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Hope everything turns out fine for you too.. I know I broke my word twice.. REalli sorry... Know that you are getting on better terms with another person.. All the best to you and that person. =]
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Talkin abt my mum, she got a fish bone struck in her throat on sat night.. I was at home, fell asleep after playing one game of sudoku.. My phone rang a few times at ard 11.15pm..
P.S: people who know my ringtone will know tat its pretty loud..
She said she felt pain and that she is goin down to CGH A&E to see the doc.. I rushed down to her workplace and sent her there in a cab.. Reached at around 11.45pm..
After waiting for abt half an hour, finally, she saw the doc.. Following tat, she went for x-ray.. After all that follows, a throat specialist came, wanted to help her take out the bone.. However, the doctor said that bcos she ate after 10pm, he can onli do it tml morning.. And she hav to stay there for the night.. Was quite worried for her.. cos dunno if there will be infection..
On Sun morning, the nurse called and said that she is fine.. And can be discharged.. So went to fetch her.. Thank God!!
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Ooh.. She showed me the fishbone.. it was abt 4cm.. and according to the doctor, the sharp edge poked the voice line.. and she might risk an infecton.. Till now, she is getting better by the day.. Hope, at the end of the day, everything turns out fine..
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Hope everything turns out fine for you too.. I know I broke my word twice.. REalli sorry... Know that you are getting on better terms with another person.. All the best to you and that person. =]
Changed my blogskin finally..
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Wanted to change it for a long time.. BUt never had the time to sit down and do it.. Changed it to a simpler skin.. Dedicate this blogskin n blog to all my frenz.. For without friends, there wouldn't be the Wendy today.. Thanks to all.. Especially the bunch who changed me totally.. THanks..
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Wanted to change it for a long time.. BUt never had the time to sit down and do it.. Changed it to a simpler skin.. Dedicate this blogskin n blog to all my frenz.. For without friends, there wouldn't be the Wendy today.. Thanks to all.. Especially the bunch who changed me totally.. THanks..
Ytd, I was to go for camp.. But I didn't.. Brought my mum to go see doctor cos she was sick.. SHe said she was ok... But she looked pale.. Haiz.. Last night, I told him tat I will be goin today.. Yet, in the middle of last night, I sms him and said tat I wouldn't be goin either.. cos I am worried abt my mum.. My eyelids keeping jumping.. Old people say, left eyelid jump, its good.. While if its the right, its bad.. ANd, my right eyelid was jumpin the whole night... You might say that its nonsense.. BUt I hav learn not to ignore tat.. Cos whenever my right eyelid jump, something bad happened... I am worried tat while I am away, something will happened.. N I dun wanna lose her jus like tat.. I do love to go.. But there was a huge voice tellin me to stay..
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To tat Someone tat I promise:
I'm sorry that I didn't turn up and I broke the words that I said. Twice somemore. Really Sorry.. I know I told you that I will not back out. I know you will be angry with me for not keeping my word. No matter how good is my reason, if its me, I would be angry too. All I can say is sorry and give you my sincere apologies. Hopefully, we will be able to see each other soon. Sorry.
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To tat Someone tat I promise:
I'm sorry that I didn't turn up and I broke the words that I said. Twice somemore. Really Sorry.. I know I told you that I will not back out. I know you will be angry with me for not keeping my word. No matter how good is my reason, if its me, I would be angry too. All I can say is sorry and give you my sincere apologies. Hopefully, we will be able to see each other soon. Sorry.
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This post is all abt my own thoughts.. Seriously.. Not directing at anybody.. Jus my thoughts in general.. Read at own risk.. Might be harmful to ur heart.. =]
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Haiz.. I was all so excited abt fri.. till i found out wat's realli happenin.. Hmm.. Of cos, as promise.. I'll not back out.. Will try to bear as much nonsense as I can.. But dun u ever blame me.. If I can't stand them anymore n walk off.. I hav been givin enough to alot of people nowadays.. n I do wish n wan to be appreciated.. Pls dun take things tat I do for you as a 理所当然..
For I oso need my rest, my life.. n somebody to listen to my nonsense.. I might not always be there for you.. But I'm sure when u do ask, I'll try my best to fly down as soon as I can to be there for u.. I do appreciate all the things that you people hav done for me.. Whether or not I say, trust me, I do know..
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I know I smile alot.. I know.. Everyday, someone will ask why am I so happy.. N I will say.. It's in me to smile.. n polite to smile at people tat I know.. However.. when I do smile, doesn't necessary means tat I'm happy.. Its jus bcos if i dun smile to people who smile at me, seems abit rude right? On e other hand, when I dun smile.. doesn't necessary means tat I'm unhappy.. jus tat I'm a little tired..
Btw, when u see me, try to call out to me n I hav no response.. Doesn't mean tat i purposely ignore u ok.. Its bcos either I can't hear u cos I'm blastin my MP3 or its bcos I'm stoning.. N i do stone veri often.. kekez.. Shh.. dun tell my boss.. Hehe..
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I'm pretty afraid of fri.. seriously.. dun wanna be outcasted by all.. Haiz.. I'm kinda afraid.. Hmm.. Will try.. Hmm.. WAt a DAY! I said so much.. See ya...
真庆幸有你们这些朋友。希望能永永远远。。
对于某一个人的关心，请留给你的女朋友。。因为我不再爱你了。。
我现在需要的是一个爱我的人。。有谁能呢？
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Something for u guys to read..
(A quote tat I heard n spoke to me at the moment when I was realli down)
The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
Anyway, it will be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid,
At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever,
Its time to move on with life.
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It spoke to me greatly.. It spoke of the things tat I felt at tat time.. I felt greatly unappreciated by tat someone tat I spent so much time with.. Trying to accompany him so tat he know someone cares for him.. However, things didn't turn out the way tat I expected.. I was very upset for a period of time bcos I realise tat all the while, I was invisible to him.. That I all along shouldn't have existed.. tat he actually tinks nothing abt wat I hav done.. I know jolly well.. Tat nobody forced me to do all tat.. Tat I could hav rejected him flat.. But people who realli know me, will know tat no matter who it is, as long as you are my friend, n you need my help, I will give me best.. No matter how much time, how much energy, or how much things or events I hav to give up.. All these is bcos, you are my FRIEND.. As long as I can do it, I will...
Although I don't ever regret what I have done.. I should have known better..
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Haiz.. I was all so excited abt fri.. till i found out wat's realli happenin.. Hmm.. Of cos, as promise.. I'll not back out.. Will try to bear as much nonsense as I can.. But dun u ever blame me.. If I can't stand them anymore n walk off.. I hav been givin enough to alot of people nowadays.. n I do wish n wan to be appreciated.. Pls dun take things tat I do for you as a 理所当然..
For I oso need my rest, my life.. n somebody to listen to my nonsense.. I might not always be there for you.. But I'm sure when u do ask, I'll try my best to fly down as soon as I can to be there for u.. I do appreciate all the things that you people hav done for me.. Whether or not I say, trust me, I do know..
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I know I smile alot.. I know.. Everyday, someone will ask why am I so happy.. N I will say.. It's in me to smile.. n polite to smile at people tat I know.. However.. when I do smile, doesn't necessary means tat I'm happy.. Its jus bcos if i dun smile to people who smile at me, seems abit rude right? On e other hand, when I dun smile.. doesn't necessary means tat I'm unhappy.. jus tat I'm a little tired..
Btw, when u see me, try to call out to me n I hav no response.. Doesn't mean tat i purposely ignore u ok.. Its bcos either I can't hear u cos I'm blastin my MP3 or its bcos I'm stoning.. N i do stone veri often.. kekez.. Shh.. dun tell my boss.. Hehe..
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I'm pretty afraid of fri.. seriously.. dun wanna be outcasted by all.. Haiz.. I'm kinda afraid.. Hmm.. Will try.. Hmm.. WAt a DAY! I said so much.. See ya...
真庆幸有你们这些朋友。希望能永永远远。。
对于某一个人的关心，请留给你的女朋友。。因为我不再爱你了。。
我现在需要的是一个爱我的人。。有谁能呢？
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Something for u guys to read..
(A quote tat I heard n spoke to me at the moment when I was realli down)
The fact that I said I did not mind, was only a lie.
It was a disguise to still allow myself to possess some pride.
I could not tell you how much I mind you and her.
Anyway, it will be brushed off.
Somethings are better off unsaid,
At least it leaves us some spaces to breathe.
Subject shall remain unknown forever,
Its time to move on with life.
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It spoke to me greatly.. It spoke of the things tat I felt at tat time.. I felt greatly unappreciated by tat someone tat I spent so much time with.. Trying to accompany him so tat he know someone cares for him.. However, things didn't turn out the way tat I expected.. I was very upset for a period of time bcos I realise tat all the while, I was invisible to him.. That I all along shouldn't have existed.. tat he actually tinks nothing abt wat I hav done.. I know jolly well.. Tat nobody forced me to do all tat.. Tat I could hav rejected him flat.. But people who realli know me, will know tat no matter who it is, as long as you are my friend, n you need my help, I will give me best.. No matter how much time, how much energy, or how much things or events I hav to give up.. All these is bcos, you are my FRIEND.. As long as I can do it, I will...
Although I don't ever regret what I have done.. I should have known better..
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