Half a year update..

More than half a year gone and many things went by.. CNY, my birthday, Natsu as well as many friends' birthdays.. For official records, I left the bank that I was working for in the past 4 years and join another industry. A total new industry that to me, one that most of my friends have never gone into, doing HR - Training.

I indeed left the bank without a job, an action deem by many to be an action of 冲动, without thinking of consequences, silly, dumb and irrational. Many ask me why and I've ask myself that question too, especially in times when last day at work came closer and there was nothing else in front to look forward to. Just to set it straight, I've never regretted the decision and the real reason that I wanted to leave that place shall jus be kept to myself and the people who know..

I'm glad that this new job came along and I will try my best to fit in and work things out. Career is what I'm looking at this time and not just another job... Thanks all who have gave their support, well wishes and prayers during this period of time that I was feeling lost and helpless.
A week ago, was e worst night of my life, feeling helpless to the extend that I wanted to end my life, in order to ease things alittle... For the first time in my life, I want to run away, run away from this life, this family and everything that I've earned, built and endured.. Till today, I'm talking to them but am still feeling the agony in me as to why things turned out this way. As to why does it have to be this way. Does family even means anything to them?? I don't know. As things are starting to recover, we all know that the damage have already been done and would never be the same again.

Was glad that Maryanne was there, trying to find me a solution and of cos, keeping me sane at the same time. If not, it probably would not be a blog post that you see now but an obituary instead. Peaceful and quiet place to dry my tears and think things over was what I needed and she gladly offered her place.

Decisions have been made, temporary solutions found and just going to let it be for now.
Recent happenings between friends and everything that have been said, heard, done, talk about, discuss are creating alot of emotions. Just hope that things are going to better.. I still stand by what I said and belief that Do unto others what you want others to do unto you. Therefore, if you do not agree with what other people have done and criticize that, do keep in mind that you should not be doing the exact same things. If not, you are just being contradicting. LOL.

To end things, I just hope that everything will get on fine.. TGIF!
Appraisal is done. Everything is finalise. I asked myself why didn't I deserve a 2.. And realise that probably I didn't do enough.. =(

Promotion is something that everyone hopes for in a job for that means that you have advance a step in your career progression.. For me, it's been 3yrs, coming to 4 and trust me, none of those of the same rank as me in my team, are heading towards that path bcos, it's almost impossible..

Shall not say more as it's already pretty late! time to sleep...
Before that, just to share a phrase that I learn to understand from my CG leader previously when I was still with them "Do to others as you would have them do to you"

I believe in what goes around comes around... 
2nd post of 2011!!!!

1st 2 weeks of 2011 have past and how have you been?
I've been living life jus like 2010, day after day, night after night.

Meet up with Ashley today, chat a far more then usual.
She was telling me something which I keep pestering her to tell me the answer but she refuse to. I tired guessing but to no avail. =(
I think I know who is talking abt thou. =D

Ahahaa.. Maybe I do, maybe I don't. But Whatever! LOL..

Additional New resolutions for the year!
1) Love myself more
2) Stay connected with friends who are worth it & find back the lost ones!!
On side note, I have convinced myself that I shld start looking for a new dept to go into once I get my bonus.. N I mean it. N I want a totally unrelated dept!!! Yesh, a totally unrelated one. No doubt I have fun and absolute trust and is for sure, comfortable with the people I am working with currently. BUT I have to agree with Ashley on ONE POINT - Being irreplaceable in your current dept will deter your chances and opportunities to grow and move on. So, I do want to move on to learn new things and since no one really think that form checking is so impt, why am I wasting my time & life doing it??

Changes can be good and bad BUT it can't go too bad if you anticipate it with the good and positive attitude. Afterall, once you hit the bottom, there's no other way except going up! =D

All e best to friends in no matter what kind of journey you are abt the embark on for only you know yourself the best and what it is that you really wanted. =D
1st post of 2011!!!

Hope this yr have been good for all so far.. How was your 2010??
Seriously, with the kind of memory I have, I can't really remember what exactly happened.. =P

But the end was 2010 was not exactly good I would say. A good friend of mine, relationship w e Gf, capsized. No comments on what actually happened cos I do not want my personal thoughts and thinking to affect him further. I AM indeed ANGRY w her for treating him that way after him, putting all his trust in her with all his heart.. BUT, what hav been done cannot be undone. I wished him all the best and may the bleeding of the heart stop soon..

Other than that, Xmas eve n New YEar's eve was first spend in office before heading out with Besties for dinner!! Photos are up on facebook!!! =) Christmas presents are all still in their packaging
 cos I'm too lazy to do any packing at this moment.. wahhahaa... Christmas day was spend At JEsslynn's place to celebrate e little boy's birthday as well as getting to know e rest of the gang.. Was a great day spend.

AFter counting down on NYE, headed over to Henry's place for mini mahjong session decided pretty last min as the offer was bring up on NYE itself, while we were having team lunch and onli confirmed at like 6plus in e evening.. Was fun hanging out with them thou.. Or other, I like playing mahjong.. =D

Back to work is of cos a torture.. Wahahaa.. But meeting up w friends was a pleasure. Finally met up w Dan, Trix, Gerry, Daniel, Peidi, Fook Yu, XM, Emily, Zhenhao n their son for dinner and also, met up w Qiqi for dinner too. It's always fun to meet up w friends, talking abt everything under the sun!

With e new year starting, other than New Year Resolutions, it is also time to make plans for HOLIDAYS!!!
This year might be a little packed w trips!!! (Need to save more $$$)

1st: Phuket Trip
2nd: Australia Trip
3rd: Japan Trip!!!

Thinking of going:
1) Batam! (YES, again!)
2) JB (Ok, this is not considered a trip but I want to go in for FOOD!!)
3) Taiwan (YES! I want to revisit n explore more taiwan!!)

Alright! After all these yakking, have you guys make ur new year resolutions? I haven't! But here shld be a start!!

1) No more cabbing to work! (I'm starting on it already! So far so good!!)
2) Save more money! (No splurging!!!)
3) Slim down more!! (That have become a regular item here! Oppss!)
4) Out of SG for New Year Eve's countdown!! (Yes! That's my resolution!! Even if it's GENTING)
5) Transfer dept!!! (I want to get out of my boring JOB!!)

All e best people!!! LOve YA!!